It's time

I have to do this, I don't want to but if I don't it can harm my health. I have to go to the dentist to have either a root canal or an extraction. I'm praying for a root canal. I really want to save my tooth but I think that I've put this off for far to long. I've put it off so so long, first of all, for cost, second of all, because I'm terrified of the dentist!! I have all of my teeth, I'm fortunate. I have a mouth full of fillings but I do have all of my teeth. I brush, I floss, I rinse, etc., but when it comes to actually going to the dentist, I freak out. I was traumatized as a child at the dentist. Seriously. Our dentist was a mean, cold, rough, bastard! He didn't care if you were numb or not. He would start drilling and he didn't care how much you cried he would continue until he was finished! I had the same dentist most of my childhood. So, you see, I have to face the music, overcome my fear, and go to the dentist. I have this one tooth that keeps becoming abscessed and it is extremely painful. The pain is so intense that I become sick. This time, my entire left side of my face swelled up. I looked up the symptoms online and from what I read, this can be very serious. I now am taking antibiotics to clear up the infection and then, it's time to do whatever is necessary to take care of my tooth. Lord help me, I'm truly scared to death, but it has to be dealt with.